A God Moment

I had a beautiful moment this week, a moment that I needed. Sometimes when you really need God... there He is. I was outside with Will Tuesday afternoon. It was about 5:15 and as I was sitting in the lawn chair watching him play I started to get cool. I went inside and grabbed a jacket and came back out. As I settled back down in my seat I started thinking about my disdain for cool weather. Then I started to think, "holy cow... it's practically FALL. I am having a baby in the late fall. Oh. My Gosh. What did we do?" I started having a minor panic attack. Two kids?! Some days our one kid is more than I can handle. Twice the day care costs? Less adult time than Dave and I have now? Sleepless nights for months on end while working and caring for a toddler? The thoughts were paralyzing. All of a sudden Will rolled his cart over to where I was sitting and stopped in front of me. He put his hands in my lap and patted my knees. "Mama," he said. "I love our baby." Wow. What a moment. I knew it was God, using my son to reassure me that everything was going to be ok. That this is HIS plan and He will not give me more than I can handle. I know we will have twice the day care costs and less adult time, but we will have a daughter. And even more thank that, we will have a family. I have always dreamed of this. Two kids. A husband I adore. I have received my every wish and instead of panicking I need to remember to be thankful. God has the steering wheel. I'm just along for the ride. "Whoever has ears, let them hear what the Spirit says" Revelation 3:22